I feel full...

Day #2 on the Shangri-La diet. I'll later talk about my motivation, etc., but I had the most unusual feeling today of being "full" and a little "too full" on far less food than normally would create such a feeling. I biked in this morning, then had some cottage cheese, then some water, a break, and a tablespoon of sugar (with water), then more time, then eventually lunch. Lunch consisted of a small cup of soup and salad that looked kind of big, but honestly wasn't really. It's size was a function of the leaves and peppers and other weirdly shaped vegetables creating a structure that was taller than normal.

Afterwards I felt full. Didn't think about food until my meeting (and did the 1-hour no food, then sugar water, then 1-hour no food again) and just recently had a cup of fruit. I feel full. I don't want a big dinner.

Why am I doing this? I feel fat. I look fat. I was on a trip last week and watching the videos I was *unhappy* with how fat my belly looked. I recently hit 200 lbs, which on a 6-foot frame isn't necessarily flattering (even if I have a larger frame than others). I still have too big a belly.

10 years ago, which is not too long ago, I was 165. I've been up to 205. Ugh. Oh, this morning, in my early-morning-weigh-in, I did see the "other" side of the 190 line for the first time in probably years. That would be the 189 side for those keeping track.

So, I'll try to blog more, and read the book tonight. For now I want to catch up on some work stuff...